humani-vore-ing (a tonal drawing written in poetic form)

humani-vore-ing

“so what’s wrong with you now!”
dis gnaw’n on’me! dat’s what’s wrong
“no way you’re just imagining things!”
i aint imagining a goddamn thing!
“all right then where’s your proof! huh!
LOOK!!!I’M ALREADY BLEED’N!!!
 “Yeah! it’s because of what you’re doing wrong!”
‘cause of what !I’M! doing wrong!
“nobody else here’s complaining ‘bout bleeding
so what else can it be!
but i’ll tell you what . . .
if you’ll just calm down and act more civilized
i’ll tell you exactly what you need to be doing”
and who in the hell you ‘spose to be!
 “the one you need to be listening to right now!
anyway . . . early somewhere in the morning
when you standing there in the mirror”
how a body be stand’n in a damn mirror!
listen! . . . you just be telling the rest of us
what you’re feeling like you’re seeing”
 ‘spose i say’n i aint see’n nothing
aint no body else gon be there
so how you gon know if i’m lying!
“what do you think we all be saying then
‘bout what we’re feeling like we’re seeing
when we’re standing there too
nothing!!!nothing!!!nothing!!!
because you caint be saying nothing
about nothing except nothing! . . .
now aint you got some damn nerve
here acting all out in our pretending
whining loud invisiblizing like all us all
running scared lubricating hallucinating
try’n to hide here in behind
all this seeming that we’re doing
Just Who In The Hell Do Think You Are!

Copyright © 2016 Asili Ya Nadhiri

Ah Blogging: It’s Never Too Late Until We Give Up

Ah Blogging: It’s Never Too Late Until We Give Up

but what now of they themmm
’bout whom it never is it told
unknowing come they born too
with a share they hummm
of the seer’s tongue
limping aloning alone
in their incessant roam
knowd they un-be-knownst
the unknowing unknowned

“We, human beings, are certainly social animals; and must feel ourselves impacting our environment—must feel we are visible.  If we cannot realize this experience by socially acceptable means, we are vulnerable to persuasions to seek it by socially unacceptable means.  Hence, the longer and more stringently we are deprived of this experience, the more easily we are susceptible to the suasions (foreign agenda) of others.”

The weak and ignorant are always waiting and begging for a master; someone through whom they can camouflage they hatred of whom they are perceiving themselves to be. And, they must always have their heads underneath somebody’s boot. Their master, on the other hand, is just like them except his/her hiding place is behind the arrogant mask they are ostentatiously donning.  Yes, their master simply adorns the audacity to publicly pretend to play this role in an effort to hide the overwhelming fear that he/she is desperately trying to overcome vicariously just like the audience before whom they are performing.  The master is always teetering on the edge of doom; and must always be so because he/she is, simultaneously, both performer and audience.  The other (public) audience is there because they choose to do so; and can leave anytime they choose. The performer is there because he/she has no choice; and cannot leave until the show is over, the audience leaves, or they (the performers) have a most rare personal epiphany.

The present Machiavellian hustle in which we are all involved is shouting to us most emphatically:  The success of all human enterprises is absolutely proportional to the integrity of all those involved, no matter how elegantly and all-enfranchising their guiding principles maybe worded and propagated.  WE CANNOT USE REASON TO SERPENTINE OUR WAY AROUND THIS!!! Why, then, is a large proportion of the human population hanging on to and so desperately aiding and abetting those persons who are constantly being forced upon us by the media:  those persons who are going to all extremes to keep their names and faces constantly in our presence. WHY! Because so many of us are suffering the same chronic insecurity and feeling of invisibility as they (our stars) are. These “stars” are living vicariously through a pervertingly distorted image in their own minds; and we are, likewise, living through this same image as we are perceiving it in them. WE ARE BEING HUSTLED BECAUSE WE HAVE THE SAME DISEASE IN OUR HEARTS AS DO THOSE WHO ARE HUSTLING US!!! As are they, we are addicts constantly demanding an ever increasing dose of this desperationing. What can we do; what does one do when facing a severe case of constipation?

We are drowning in the hypnotizing splashings of fat turds hustling our own toilet waterings. And so disgracefully so, when we are the conduits through whom something eternally beautiful is flowing. Why? Because we are most blatantly and portentously refusing to be existentially realizing and actualizing the reality that the pipe (the conduit) is never the focus of Broadway Praise and Inflated Accolades: SERVICE IS OUR ACCLAIM! We, as is all creation, are always elegantly and purposefully and entroypingly entangling on . . . We are all flowing in a most elegant and embracing cosmos; not hanging-out on the legislating dirt footpaths of some imaginary apocryphal outpost seeking adoption.

Copyright (c) 2020 Asili Ya Nadhiri

immortalizing hologramming (a tonal drawing written in poetic form)

immortalizing hologramming

!SCARED!SCARED!SCARED!
is rabidly ravishing the sills of all our wills
with convolutioning rhetoric-ling spills
endlessly entangling on’n’on’n’on in on’n’on
keep’n’us always addictingly slipp’n down
on alternative words of barding bird turds
salaciously pontificationingly sowing
in the ground as our salvatory words . . .
respectively we’re always robotically
run’n on in our same old same old lanes
obediently numb’n so never feeling no pain
cofflinged zombies just chant’n our dirge
“dis aint my fault it’s !yours yours yours!”
perpetuating the cultivationing
of this soar’n humanivoring despair
grow’n out of our primordial womb . . .
this systemic pandemic’s here in’our bones
like it never gon ever be leaving us alone
despite all our wanton overdose’n on
the same old ruse of reality fantasize’n
so actualizing camouflaging in the guile
“i’aint really this whom i’m seem’n to be
and sho’as’hell aint this same some body
who’s here acting just like they’re me . . .”

Copyright © 2020 Asili Ya Nadhiri

 

A Blogging: A DELUSIONAL HERD OF CITIZENS

A Blogging: A DELUSIONAL HERD OF CITIZENS

       Why are we so desperately and obsessively displaying our addiction to the braying and sashaying of our well vetted most delusionally insecure jackasses? We are not even taking time to be standing ourselves out by ostensively nodding! ARE WE JUST ENTHRALLING TO THE NOTION OF ENDLESSLY CHASING OUR WAGGING TAILS!!!

Copyright © 2020 Asili Ya Nadhiri

Ah Blogging: LIVING IS NOT A GAME; IF SO HOW DO WE KEEP SCORE!

Barack Hussein Obama II is the first African American duly elected president of the United States of America.  During his eight year tenure (two duly elected terms) he orchestrated the passage of several pieces of hallmark legislation beneficial to the citizens (and non-citizen residents) of the United States, specifically, and the world’s citizens, generally.  These are historical facts that cannot be erased or overturned or legislated into void of “never happened.” Currently, we are witnessing a concerted effort to undo these facts at all costs to the welfare of the citizens of the United States (and, necessarily, the world).  Castigation and perpetual denial and alternative fact-ting (serpentining ratiocinationing)  will not obliterate what has been done; and they certainly will not eliminate the desperationing grip of invisibilizing/insecurity our society is rapidly and progressively cowering on and on into. Least we fail to realize:  Both leaders and followers are both leaders and followers and are always generically experiencing the same existential circumstances. The promised fruits of our society require an electorate that is (1)informed (knowledgeable of the constitutionally expressed duties and responsibilities of those elected to execute our government, and the blatant shortcomings woven into this illusive document); (2) engaged (actively participating in our own governance by voting, being discerning and demanding absolute integrity on the part of our representatives, and being more objective in determining what we allow to determine our world view; and  (3) truly wanting all the “inalienable rights” for each other that we are wanting for ourselves.

Asili Ya Nadhiri (04/30/20170, 07/22/2020)

sucking on the sugar titty of vicariousing (a tonal drawing written in poetic form)

sucking on the sugar titty of vicariousing
(elegy for those willing to be automatons)

what’s this who i’m pretending to be
the one outside i’m seeing through
or some anybody else i’m wishing i am
what’s this i’m feeling that i cannot see
wandering all around here
some where inside of me

how’s it my fault for this what i’m being
with this scared wrapping here
all up around my knees
and what the hell i’m ‘sposing to be doing
when aint nobody seeing nobody here
not even some nother body called me

so if i’m the one always being ‘sposed to cry
and who everybody’s figuring’s be going to die
why shouldn’t i be acting like somebody else
numbing fantasizing and aint feeling no pain
by filling up this bitter hole i aint wanting to be
with anybody i’m told is mo’ better than me

Copyright © 1993, 2004, 2018, 2019 Asili Ya Nadhiri

Mama (a tonal drawing written in poetic form)

Mama

i saw you
there alone cold
with no cover
on a bed that was not yours
renting
what you always owned
just to be here near me

your brown lips were dark and purpling
calling my name as you always did
from my first breath
the purpose of your life
keeping me safe and warm

there you are
as helpless as i
touching hands
but still alone

Copyright © 1990 Asili Ya Nadhiri

 

Mama                   

 “O ALLAH
if You must take her now
please give her the paradise”
is fulling me with its somber petition
and delivering me
on here in the door of this room
where you’re lying there
in its sterile and guilty ambience
your regal maternal splendor
covering-up the clinical remission
leaving you here cold
all alone with no cover
on a bed that’s not your own
                            “. . . renting, son, what I’ve always owned
so just to be here near you . . .”
your brown plum lips are solemnly emfolding
in a darkening purple and stubbornly
proclaiming the purpose of your life
keeping me safe and warm
here we are Mama
as we’re always wanting
together on with in one the other
holding hands in our still alone

Copyright © 1990, 2015 Asili Ya Nadhiri

as we’re blindly stumbling on (a tonal drawing written in poetic form)

as we’re blindly stumbling on

I’m feeling a cold wind blowing
and taking what little there’s left
for us to be wrapping here around us

I’m seeing wet glossy eyes trying to cry
and long empty arms reaching out for themselves
and words lost here in the echoes

I’m smelling the oily odor of unwashed lives
doused in perfumes costumes and mobile tombs
filed in cold and lonely rooms

I’m lamenting the many times in temperate climes
when those things warm and easily won
are tossed away and left undone

Copyright © 1988, 2020 Asili Ya Nadhiri

nuance-ing shadows (a tonal drawing written in poetic form)

nuance-ing shadows
(is it is what it is)

how’s glancing ever seeing
when you’re never quite is-ing
almost hearing something being said
running ‘round’n’round like you’re living
‘cause breathing’s implying you aint dead
and always pretending you being themmm
you might not be want’n to be
virtuallings there inside your head
cussing at each other instead

Copyright (c) 2019 Asili Ya Nadhiri